What i realized today

My hamster is not well. ney's one keep on having this squeky sound and his balls (-_-') kinda swollen.
mine? his nose is kinda bleeding. maybe got scratched by cat during the time at kgau. but now its ok already.

i don't know what to do.

today i asked ney when is his next long off again? and he said maybe middle of november.
WHAT??!! how can this be! NO!!
it's like 40DAYS to come!!

i'm speechless.

all i do is counting the day in my hp's calendar.

plus today my astro got cut. great isn't it!! again ney is in night shift!

This whole shit thing 2

my mind non-stop thinking about tomorrow or the future.

and there's always the 'if only' words about tomorrow and the future.

what about today? i don't even care.

will i get over this situation? will i?

i don't think i can.

*sigh*

This whole shit thing

i'm here back again and it drives me crazy!

i hate to be here.

i really having a depression like hell!

i can't even do anything single thing right now.

my mind is so in mess.

i don't know if i can handle all this right now.

i nearly faint just now.

i've been crying since yesterday.

i am feeling homesick.

all i can do is just pray to god all the time.

i'll post about my holiday next time.