Thoughts

I'm thinking while blogging *sigh*

I have so many thoughts in my mind that i just wanted to scream it out but not loud.
can i do that? i'm scared.
scared till my whole body like turning into cold one
and my stomach full of butterflies.
There's so many stuff linger on my mind that i want it to happen!
i want it to happen now and just stuck there and let the time freeze.
While i'm enjoying the moment of mine to myself.
i am being silly here with such an endless imagination that i kept for myself
Which maybe it's just going to be my imagination for the rest of my life.
Am i satisfied with what i had in my life now?
no. not really. i'm not hating it neither do i loving it.
It sucks.
i am confused with this whole thing and this whole situation.
I don't know what else should i do or say.
my life now for me is very complicated on my point of view
And i hated it soo much!
every minute all i wanted is the time when i close my eyes and linger in my own dream
With my beautiful imagination.
that's only the time when i felt so calm and peace and smile? there's always on my face.
I couldn't talk to anybody about this. i don't want to.
Nobody will understand.

I guess all i've wanted is..........
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nobody know. not even me. i know but i don't know how to make it happen and i'm not sure about it.

I felt so useless and stupid.

I am helpless now.

p/s : i wanted to buy the whole set of Twilight novels. where can i find it?

Having fun

We were busy cleaning and rearranged at the back of my aunt's house for this Wednesday. It's New Year countdown!!! Can't wait. We're going to have barbeque with the whole family here in kk.



Went to Warisan Square again yesterday. Went to Times, Big Apple, Roxy, D&M, Charles & Keith and etc.... I think i cannot even go inside C&K anymore, all the shoes and handbag make me crazy! i want them all!! Ohh i bought something from Roxy anyway, purse :


I am sooo excited for Chinese New Year!! Now we are thinking what biscuits we are going to bake hehe!!

Tomorrow PMR result is out! My cousin Sheila sat on it. So i am very very curious 'bout her result!

To Stephenny : You have to come to my house!!! you've been postponed it so many times already!! and i have so many stuff to talk to you. i really need to talk to somebody and i know u got story to tell me too so i'll kill you if you don't show up this weekend okay! hehee!

Butterfly

Breathe on me gently

Whisper me with your breathtaking voice

Touch my lips with your cold hand

Kiss me tenderly and passionately

Like there's no tomorrow.

Everyone makes me laugh today. Especially tonight. I am happy. I am taking risk. But whatever it is i know i can handle it wisely with God's help.

Good Night!!