enough

my heart was torn into pieces and there's nothing you can do about it.

i had enough.

i will begone.

Wish

I wanna meet a genie so that he can grant my wish.

or see a shooting star so that i can cross my finger to make a wish. What wish i'm talking about?

This past few days i've beem thinking deep about my little Dania. she so growing up already and i don't want it to happen this fast! i want her milestone to go slow so that i can record it in my memory every single bit of it. but i can't. there's some things that i couldn't remember while she's growing up.


I regret saying that i want her to grow up fast when she was just few months old. i said that because last time i am having a hard, tired and stressful time with her. it was really hard to put her to sleep last time. but if i look back to that days it's not that bad afterall, maybe i'm still new at handling a new born so its stressing me out so because of that i want her to grow up fast so that it will become easier for (which is not actually). the more they grow up the harder for you to take care of them actually.

Last month i ask dania one thing that i want her to accomplish fast, walking. yes, i want her to be walking, enough with the crawling already so that it is easier for me but i was wrong. now she's walking at the age of 1 year and 1 month old and there i am following her everywhere she wanna go. so it is more tiring for me actually. So because of this i promise that will be the last thing that i want her to do fast in her milestone.

But right now i'm just enjoying every moment with her whether in good, happy, sad or bad times i will always be there for her. cherish every moment of it. still i don't want her to grow up fast!! take it slow Dania.

So what is actually this wish thing have to do with Dania's milestone?

Well......

I WISH THAT I CAN TURN BACK TIME TO WHEN SHE WAS JUST BEING BORN ON
19 09 2009.

so that i can remember, cherish and enjoy every single second and moment with my baby.

*sob sob sob*

her small feet snapped by herself while holding my hp.

Fantasy

I've just finish watching the Twilight saga : Eclipse. i love it. i was smiling myself during the whole movie.


Did you watch it yet? did you ever feel while watching it, its like you were in the situation or in that same place same time with Bella and Edward and the rest? have you?? i know i did. even last time while watching Twilight. no wonder teens are so crazy about them. hey don't get me wrong ok, i'm just enjoying the movie bah!!


My favorite scene was when Bella and Edward on the grass full of purple flowers all around them. if you were here watching me watching this part you can see my smile can reach my ear lol. seriously!


I love Kristen's character as Bella. she really fit to it. for me she's pretty and natural in her own way. many people said that she's very awkward and stiff but she's just being herself i guess and i like her. in this movie i luurrvveee her hair and clothes!!

So for me there's no Team Edward nor Team Jacob.

This movie makes my belly full of butterfly! maybe because i was really into it. into the character. into the situation. into the conversation and thoughts. and i love it. my fantasy. lol.



This is where i wanna be, spending my time with lovers just like when Edward and Bella was hugging each other (my own story line) facing the woods and the mist. how romantic is that?


Dreaming myself to be in this kind of place just like in the Twilight movie. fantasy fantasy fantasy of a dreamer.

Me.

Tuesday i like

It's laundry day just like yesterday and last night.

Don't you just love to dry your colourful and different sizes of your clothes like the above picture.
when you look at it afar from your house? its very peaceful.

I'm just loving my home at the moment. my nest. Maybe i'll bake a cake today or a cupcake.

I heart those curtain!! then it really inspired me to changed my old curtain here in our living room.

Photo via michelew

Hate when people take advantage of our kindness for our weaknesses. Please think what other people might think about you!

BONAMANA

Found this post of tagging bloggers at Carmel's blog, i wanna try it suka-suka ja.....

The Rules:

Put your music library on shuffle. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. You must write that song title as the answer to the question, no matter how silly it sounds! Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough. Ok, go! When you're done, tag 20 people in this note, and make sure to tag the person who sent you this. The answer to #20 is the Title of your note.

~~ I used songs from my handphone ~~

1.If someone says, “Is this okay?” you say

Cry me out - Pixie lott

2. How would you describe yourself?
Dance with my daddy - Alex (korea)
Tiada kaitan...

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?)

This is me - Demi lovato

4. How do you feel today?

Thinking of you - Katy perryQuite suitable kan, rindu org d kampung hahahaa

5. What is your life’s purpose?

Love story - Taylor swift
eerrrkkk....

6. What's your motto?

You belong with me - Taylor swift
no no no....

7. What do your friends think of you?

Oh! - Girls generation
Oh yaa??

8. What do you think of your parents?

I never told you - Colbie caillat

9. What do you think about very often?

Smile - Uncle crackerYesss....

10. What is 2 + 2?

Stick with you - Pussycat doll
so true...

11. What do you think of your best friend(s)?

Run devil run - Girls generationAll of them very naughty i guess....

12. What do you think of the person you like?

Haru haru - Big bang
eehhmmm....

13. What is your life story?

No other - Super junior
????

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?

Nobody (but you) - Wonder girls
LOL!! ngam juga kan...

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?

My immortal - Evanesence

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?

California girls - Katy Perry
Siok juga...

17. What will they play at your funeral?

Yo te amore - Chayanne (spanish)
it's a love song for the one who died wah!

18. What is your biggest fear?

Need you now - Lady antebelum
Fear being alone i guess....

19. What is your biggest secret?

My life would suck without you - Kelly clarkson
no no no......

20. What will you post this as?

Bonamana - Super Junior
Hahahaha...

Yupp i'm jumping to the beat goes on...

Photos

Bubbles that we played yesterday and photo of Dania wearing dress which is my favorite one!!

it's a beautiful evening... during sunset.

i just realized that the color of her dress matches the sofa LOL!!

Having fun

Me and my little Dania played bubbles today. we blow lots and lots of bubble.

The moment i did the first blow she get all overly excited and making all sort of noise. so cute.

My tiredness never ends.

*enjoying my bubur cha-cha while the two of my loved sleeping*

( image via UNKNOWN)

Family visit

I am in a cheer mood because......

My grandmother and aunt with her baby boy arrived here yesterday for 3 days ONLY huh. they want to go jalan-jalan here in tawau.

I Want A DSLR !!

My heart and soul

Yes she is my heart and soul. I love her more than anything in this world. Saja saja i put this latest picture of my little Dania. Show you her attitude. naughty.

I kinda miss blogging suddenly after reading some blogs. So i decided to do it back again, but i really need to find free time to do this. If anyone of you realized that i didn't post anything for so long please do remind me on facebook :)

Just now i baked marble choc-coffee cake. but it did not raise like any other cake. no idea why pedahal i already add baking powder and soda too. how come ah?? is it because of the soda? or maybe i beat the ingredients too hard. i read on yahoo answer about this and they say it could be the problem. Im not so sure which is the main cause.

So as a result my cake is short. Oh or maybe the acuan big for the amount of the total mixture??

Reason cake did not raise:
1. Pan is too large
2. underbaked - oven temperature too low
3. under-beating batter
4. too much liquid
5. batter sat too long before baking

Well as the source said up there...i think reason number 1 and 3 for my cake.

Anyway here it is : (sedap juga bah!!)

Marble Choco-Coffee Cake with Peppermint Icing on top.

Its delicious!!

Now the dishes i leave to ney to wash it hahahaa. Night!!