Monday, October 31

Our weekend & Kasih Sayang

So our weekend started off with a girls party - we did manicure pedicure and girl's food (wah! adaka?) hehee , organized by my cousin Sheila then we had family dinner and also we went to Kasih Sayang again. It was fun but this time i am so damn tired ^^

Part that i loved the most is met my family member and some other friend. socializing with them, eat and enjoy every moment with them was the nicest thing.

Here's some photo i took using my wave. i didn't edit any of the scenery picture, just add watermark. it wasn't that nice, i know -_-

At Kasih Sayang the sunset that time wasn't that beautiful because of the thick cloud, so i can say that it's a waste. but during night time all the lights are pretty and the moon was on crescent shape ^.^ and the fire fly was all over the place.

I couldn't take any photo during night time because i was too busy handling lil Dania. now she is being a very terrible two! seriously her naughtiness is way over the top. any-hooo i will blog about it soon, i have to.

Have a nice weekdays ahead you guys! i hope mine will be great -_-

Thursday, October 27

It's been a long time...

........................... since we camwhoring!

Like my aunt said last time before we get married almost everyday we will take picture of ourselves ^^ but the after get married (what more after 1 kid) camwhoring didn't even appear a slight in our mind. not anymore. so it means that we're getting old! LOL!!!

For it's true in some people. same goes to myself lah ni. feeling old maka baru 24, adui.... so setelah sekian lamanya didn't do any camwhoring yang kita SS sndri hehee so whenever i tried to take a picture of myself smiling at the hp camera with a silly feeling, the result of the picture was a disaster i tell you!

But today i have this determination konon to take some nice picture of ourselves (me, my cousin and Dania) while going out to suria hehee!! as the picture above shown we've succeeded!! nah that's my new haircut konon ^.^

which is.... do try nice picture of yourself once in a while hehee!!

Tuesday, October 25

My eye candy

Henry Golding
(photo source for his facebook and google)

......................... or maybe my heart candy !! ^.^

Hahahaa! Just kidding. his smile and hair really blew me away, hmm or melted me ^.^ hehee!

Sunday, October 23

Her eyes

Dania kinda freak me out lately. i think she can see something that some of us can't see. what i mean is ghost! yes seriously, i realized this started to happen since we moved to keningau on July.

I don't know why she able to see those thing but definitely make me so mad! but i'm not scared, you've gotta pray about it though ^^ Sudah lah the place that we always visit which is my uncle's house and my family housing area at kg.lingkudau have all kind of spirit (mengikut kata orang yang pandai tengok la konon) and i mean ALOT. i'm not 100% believe in it but there's satan and his demons all around us right so they like to disturb kids.

Plus again since moving there we always watched ghost movie so for me that's why Dania started to see things. there's one day me and Dania were watching zombie kampung pisang (comedy ghost story) and she asked me what is that while pointing at the zombie so i told her that's Momo' (sometimes we use this kampung word referring as the ghost). so i think she remembered how it looks like, white face.. messy hair... weird shirt etc. and after that we did watched other ghost movie while Dania is with us so there goes the brain cell ^^ i think it's our fault to let her watch those kind of movie -_-

So i think satan know that Dania recognize those scary faces and maybe they decide to show them to her, to test her or to disturb her. that's just my believe. there's few incident actually where she will suddenly get scared and said momo' or monster. yes i think she seen a monster before hehe^^ just like in the cartoon Monster Inc. sometimes she will just said momo' without feeling scared.

Now everytime we want to go to bed i will switch off the light and that really scared her. she even cry! and i was soooo angry that time, not to Dania. i have a cousin (girl) and she can see things since she was 1 i think and when she started to see those things she not scared because still clueless about scary things kan but as she get older she started to get really really scared. because she can see it like 24/7 but now she's 7 years old and she stop seeing it already.

i'm worried if Dania will be just like her -_-'

I will never ever again watch ghost movie nor try to scared her with the word momo'.

Saturday, October 22

No more

Yayy there's no more curly-super long-frizzy hair for me!!!

Yes! i cut my hair last Wednesday and i'm loving it. for now ^^ cause itu pun if kena blow, so i have to do it if i want it to look nicer cause there's still a lil bit of curl at the end of it. okay the picture above just showing you about hair ^^ and the fringe is kinda like mine *wink2* but her's is better la -_-
I haven't got any chance to snap my new hair, always forgot.

Just now we went to a place called Kasih Sayang (Jalan Kokol). and i am so in love with that place! it's on top of a beautiful hill. we were there just about the sunset ending but still it was a beautiful evening scenery! all the colorful light plus cool wind (macam di ranau) plus good food tapi mahal!

i didn't take any photo cause there's too many people in our table so i was kinda embarrass with our italian & english friends hehee lagipun that time dark already so using a hp camera sia-sia saja. but we'll be going there again next sunday and i will take a lovely (hopefully) pictures for me to post here and a remembrance. Can't wait! ^^

Overall this was a lovely great saturday!! ^^

Thursday, October 20

Grandma story

Since here in kk at my aunt place we've been busy going out, but today cuti dari jalan hehe, penat oh apa lagi when you have few kids following you. only a mothers know.

Actually i wanna talk about my grandma's attitude nowadays. i just felt kinda weird with her drastic change, well macam orang slalu cakap..."besalah budak-budak punya perangai" but this phrase referring to any kids kan but lau orang tu "besalah tu sudah tua kan makin macam budak-budak" haahahaa!! it's true lah.

This is something funny but very irritating to us. for some of my family member who is not always around with my grandmother memang sure wont get it. what did she do?

First of all she likes to complaint every single silly thing that she not satisfied kemahuan dia! sometimes she can be a pain in the ass bah! likes to use sarcasm again. ofcourse sometimes it is hurful but i have to set my mind that she's getting old.

Okay it's not that i don't like her ah, i love her, she's my mum's mom. but itulah her attitude bikin geram! hehee.

One thing that i learn about her is never ever tell her any big secret. she's not going to tell anybody lah, but once she know the story already been told to other people then she will start talking about it. and what's worse? she can twist the story! until other people will go and asked you questions that you think the answer is your own thing and your own decision and it's your own damn life!

Second of all ^^ kuat merajuk! adui... and at this point she definitely will use any sarcasm yang terlintas di hati fikiran dia. sometimes if dia tidak puas hati pasal something nah she will start acting weird. like talking to you in a rough way, answer your question dengan tidak ikhlas, and most of all marung lah tu muka! so whenever we see this kind of face or attitude we know there's something that she's not satisfied at all. irritating bah!

And lastly she likes to think negative at other people act! even at small kids, geramnya sa. she always tell other people what he/she did or say without knowing the right story. like accusing lah tu kan. she even wanna make the story become a big matter lagi tu. but for us who know her will just ignore what she said to us. sometimes we have to tell her firmly the truth if she start accusing.

I just wanna give an example lah here k hehehee :

the other day we went to parkson for a little shopping for the kids, and at the counter my stuff i just put together with my aunt's kan so later i pay her back. so after that i went for a seat while my aunt cuci mata lagi,so while waiting suddenly my grandma came to me and she said "inikah baju-baju dorang c bebe & gegirl (my aunt's kids)" and i said "iya sama c dania punya juga", then her face expression suddenly change, and she said "ohh c dania pun ada.... brapa lah ni semua?" so i said "tia tau tu nek". so inside my aunt's car (sa tidak ikut) my aunt told me that my grandma was sooo busy asking this and that about that stuff AGAIN! and the next day she said to me about it AGAIN, "punyalah mahal pula baju-baju dorang c bebe sama dania semalam kan.. 400+ bah", so i was like "ohhh yaka, kualiti bagus bah tu nek, lagipun c aunty ada beli tuk anak kawan dia juga" the she said "ha tuk kawan pun beli yang mahal-mahal juga ka" then after that i ignore her lah ^^

so what i know from that incident she was kinda not satisfied that my aunt help me to pay for dania's shirt and i completely have no idea why!! pedahal sa bayar balik pun and while inside the car when she asked for the total of the stuff pun my aunt did tell her that i will pay her back (just to satisfied her i guess) but still she's acting so so so weird.

Banyak lagi story dia ni but biarlah, i just wanna post here that her attitude definitely has change through out the year, and maybe because of the hormone ka? adui susah juga kan.

do you have any experience like this?

Saturday, October 15


the cake above is to die for!! Caramel cake.

a photo of my two year old



Paris?? ^^ noo.... instead i'm going back to kk this weekend!!

Maybe for two weeks, i just need some new fresh air. away from all the insane things! i just need some space of my own for me to think deeply about the matter.

I had enough of the words and act that hurting me, so me and Dania will begone no matter what!

Monday, October 10

Sleepless night

It definitely has been a hell of a ride for me this week!!

Something has happened that really dissapointed me big time! and this time i can't accept whatever the reason is and i can't forgive about it anymore. i had enough already after all this years. this is not about this women yang accusing me k, different story lagi ni.

Anyway forget about that. my sleepless night...... me and Dania is not feeling well for the whole week. infact Dania cough has been going on for almost amonth already, which make so worried about it! but everytime we visited the doc, he told me nothing to worry about, it's just a normal cough which came from the cold weather we're having here in keningau. well i have to agree about that. but almost amonth bah! until the medicine finish still no change.

and me, i am down with fever, horrible cough and runny nose plus intense headache. wah! teruknya kan, yes it is that bad, luckily c hubby was off for 4 days so there's someone to help me abit on taking care of Dania. i think i'm sick because of the rain the other night when i was about to go home from playing badminton. it was night time and that time was very very cold plus the rain again, bijak kan sa ^^

So itulah my sleepless night, dua-dua sakit... tidur pun tia lena. then with Dania's sleep schedule which make me go crazy, sleep at 8pm then wakeup at 12am then sleep at 3am then wakeup at 11am... so between that hour she did wakeup for nenen!

Well here i would like to take a vow ^^ that i will never go and play badminton again if that time either me or Dania is having a cold flu. and i hope i can keep it up. temping bah!

Thursday, October 6

A change

Dear lovely reader,

I would like to inform you guys that i will change my blog web add. but i still remain my domain (blogspot). i will only change the " Blissmellow ". i would really appreciate and hope that my blog visitor and who always commented on my post can change my blog add to the new one. i will leave my new blog add in your recent blog post soon or you can email me at maybe to ask me for the new add or you can leave your email to me for me to email you back the new add.

Thank You.

- why i didn't just mention the new blog add here? (maybe susah lagi kan mau email2) well because i have my own reason yang sa mau elak. sangat2 ^^

Now it will be just the two of us

Wednesday, October 5

Let it be

i was pissed off the other day when i saw her blog once again she talk about me in 'public network', well for me a blog is a public place where anybody can read what you've written. well she copy paste my message that i sent to her through FB and then she made not-so-nice comment about it.

Apa cerita sa ni?

in my previous post i said that i had a misunderstanding with this person and i already made an explanation to her, so for me it's done lah. so life goes on. i don't even want to mention it again.
But then after few weeks when i was checking my facebook friend-list, i realized that her name wasn't there anymore. i was shocked and totally confused!! so i decided to send her a message just to ask her nicely why did she remove me from her friend-list in FB, but she didn't reply. so when i was doing blog-hopping, i stop at her blog and that's when i saw she copy paste my message. what she said?

well, something like this " asking me a stupid question", " dia yang mau kasi panjang cerita lama, pura-pura tia tau lagi ", " ko soal, ko sendiri lah jawab", " buat-buat bodoh lagi depan orang", "bagus lagi sa diam-diam daripada mau explain sama orang yang macam apa ja..."

so after reading all those comment/sarcasm/phares in her post i was so angry. why? because i have no idea what she's talking about! okay let me comment one by one from her post :

- "asking me a stupid question" ,
its not stupid! infact i asked you nicely. for you it is a stupid question because i have no idea why suddenly you were acting like that so that is why i'm asking you.

- " dia yang mau kasi panjang cerita lama, pura-pura tia tau lagi",
cerita lama yang pasal kau tuduh sa kasi nangis anak ko pedahal sa sudah kasi explain face to face lagi sama ko! as far as i'm concern since the last time i visited your house to give you explaination kita teda bejumpa lagi kan, even meeting your kids pun teda.... and i spent most of my time at my gran's house lagi, jadi apa yang sa sudah buat sebenarnya? ofcourse la i'm confused and had to ask you why you remove me.

- " ko soal, ko jawab lah sendiri ",
sa sudah soal tapi teda jawapan coz all the answer is from you, but didn't even want to tell me what's going on!

- " buat-buat bodoh lagi depan orang ", memang lah sa buat tia tau coz sa teda buat apa2 yang salah sama ko nor to your family. i am not a person yang teda perasaan mau buat begitu kalau sa ada buat salah. not like some people.

- " bagus lagi sa diam-diam daripada mau explain sama tu orang yang macam apa ja...",
well orang yang macam apa? stupid? crazy? irritating? come on lah, don't you realize your behaviour is the one that want to make this matter longer or unsolved. sa tia suka bermusuh, so until now you still don't want to explain to me means that ko tia mau berbaik lah kan, ko lebih suka keadaan begini. don't you think it's selfish?

it's fine for me if you don't want to make things straight, god knows who is right and who is wrong, and only god can judge me! your accusation towards me will never end. i thought you were different from what i heard but i was wrong. for you maybe sa ni talam dua muka, but you didn't know me well and you always accusing people. if this matter is about your kids again you're defintely wrong! pasal hal budak kenapa la bah mau kasi besar, biasalah kan budak2 ni...

i'm sorry if what i said here is hurting or make you angry or maybe kalau boleh ko mau jumpa sa terus sini sebelah and marah sa. but i don't mind, because i need to speak up, i need to tell on my side of story. because when people (your friend/family) read your blog everybody will make their comment.

if you want to tell me or made a comment here in my post saying that susah-susah saja sa type2 semua ni pasal ni hal saja, like what you replied me in the FB message, no, it's not like bukan mau bermusuh apalagi macam kita ni yang kira family, tinggal pun seblah ja, so by behaving like this is definitely not nice at all. i just think that i need to say something and how i feel about this situation eventhough people said just ignore you because its not worth it. but i'm not like that yang suka kasi panjang hal bodoh.

So in my conclusion to this matter, semua dari kau saja lah, sa tia rugi apa-apa juga.ko mau simpan and cakap sama orang lain saja maybe ko sendri makan hati okay. take care.