Thursday, October 4

She's trained!!

It happened few days after her birthday 19.September.2012... suddenly she said that she wanna pee and poo at the toilet, so i let her do all those stuff in her pot, sometimes toilet bowl.

So from now on whenever she wanna pee or poo she will tell me. she don't wanna wear pampers anymore during the day. but still i'm scared that she will pee when she is sleeping so whenever she sleep especially at night i will just make her wear the pampers. BUT in the morning or when she wake up after her nap the pampers didn't wet at all.

Do you think that she's okay already sleeping without pampers? i hate if there's a pee on the bed, the bedsheet can be wash but the bed?

Anyway im just happy right now because i think that we dont have to buy pampers anymore, we can save abit perhaps. last time i was worried sick about potty train, i thought that uuurrgghh its gonna be sooo hard to teach a toddler about it but seriously the moment you didn't think much about it, that's the time it'll come smoothly and easily for you ^^

Right now okay my biggest concern still about breastfeeding. i want to try to use the lemon method. eventhough Dania is on bottle milk already still whenever she wanna sleep the bf is a must have -_-'

wish me luck!

Tuesday, September 4

September : it has been forever

Raya is over, our stuff from Tawau has arrived and now i'm in kk visiting family and some shopping. Nothing much actually.

I'm just gonna post some pictures here.

This month is Dania's 3rd birthday and i haven't got any plan yet for a party. and this month is going to be painful for us regarding our moolah! darn!

Tuesday, August 7

Random night

Sorry tonight is just a random post coz i hate to see this blog didn't get much update by the owner ^^

Dania with my notebooks and her stuff.

Now the above picture is actually about korean entertainment industries. After reading them really gave me an eye opening because all this while i never thought this things really did happen to the artists there. If u have Cleo magazine this month i'm sure you know. i feel sad and disappointed actually after reading this article. i said so because korean artists really worked hard for their performance whether in acting or singing or etc but they did not get paid equally by their manager or whatever they called it, plus being tortured physically and mentally. how sad was that?!

 Us went to Watson to get some essential needs.

How sad is this? this is the only thing that i get to shop for myself, no buying shirt or accessories or shoes or makeup... just this! its been a long time. okay i shouldn't complained here because the main reason is that we need to do more saving for our daily needs.

Thursday, August 2

Pretty Things : Pinstagraming

I love pretty pictures. and i love viewing all the pictures from the people that i followed on Instagram and pinterest. sometimes YOU inspire me ^^

How about viewing your and your followers pictures in pinterest way? you should try Pinstagram ^^ its fun.

And because of all this pretty inspiring pictures i wish that i can view it again and again and again anytime i want... well i mean without even connecting to the internet. like just save it in my folder and look at them until i get board ^^ impossible.

Friday, July 27

Flying high

Despite the chaos about the inlaws and personal issue -_-' .....

...... i am feeling creative lately!

 no... not just about book-scraping, but other stuff too like photography, designing, pretty thing and etc.

I planted a flower today, hopefully it will grow beautifully. and i watched Black Swan, LOVED it. i lurvvveee ballet!

Positive Positive Positive!!!


Monday, July 16

Move out please!!

Yes i want them to move out of the house sooner!

SIL and all her kids please think straight, pack your stuff and move outta house without us telling you guys to do it. For god sake can't you even think about that yet?? and NO i will not wait until you get you pension!

Each of us have our own family and we need our own space. without anyone or anybody staying at the house, keep coming back for a stay even someone who's not related to us at all! but all you guys do to the house and us are totally no respect at all and i'm getting annoyed and irritate by it already, so STOP!!!

You have work, your kids are big enough, you have your own money and your own way of crazy life so go and find a house that you manage to rent or maybe buy! i am sick and tired of all this already. 


I wanna have a proper door and own house keys!
If only i can say all those things to her face to face wouldn't it be easier for me? apparently i'm not strong enough. however yes i want them to move out of the house this year! that's all.

Friday, July 13

Don't worry

Well no.2 is the hardest one to avoid. well......

Wednesday, July 4

July and the rest of the night...

Well i'll be 25 this month ^^

It's not such a big thing for me and i don't even bother about it actually. and 5 more years i'll be 30 !!!! should i be worried, NO.

Anyhooo i just thought that this month will be the most challenging month for me, for my personal life. and yes i am still confused and maybe in big dilemma!

Anyhooo again.... no more football every night and i'm sad. i feel like my night was sooo boring without this excitement feeling every single night waiting for a match after match after match! but now no more waiting... no more more goosebumps watching my fav team scoring...etc, no more!

And i have to wait another 2 years for the World Cup. Okay i know there will be League game too but hey a battle between country is more interesting right?

Okay i even painted my nail with the Spain colour, talk about high-spirit for the final!! LOL

Fernando Torres with her daughter! yes he's off the market so sad (joking!) and he has a son too named Leo, his daughter named Nora and he's only 28!

I'm sure some of you if reading this post knows that Maya Karin was a big fan of football too... ^^ and she even flew to Ukraine to watch the match between Germany and Greece i think.... so jealous! i wish i could watch a live match too LOL and i wouldn't mind painting my face like her to support my favorite team! GO ESPANA ^^

Photo source : Maya Karin's twitter.

Okay in conclusion every night is boring! besides entertaining Dania with her crankiness yeah that's all.

Thursday, June 28


 Now Dania have two habit.

1. Changing her skirt or dress over and over again.
2. Scratching!

And both i feel soooo annoyed! Okay maybe i am abit wrong here, rather than the told me that i should just go with the flow and love it with this kind of 2 year old plus attitude. But sometimes i had enough for one day LOL.

What can i do to prevent her from continuing her attitude?

1. i will tell her that i will give her a little smack with the hanger (she will 'buy' it but with some shouting and crying -_-)

2. i said that i already wash the skirt/dress (that she wanted to wear) but then she knows that have more in her closet -_-' (sometimes she will 'buy' it)

3. i will say the NO NO NO to her hundred times! but both of us will end up upsetting each other. (she definitely 'not buying' it)

So after the no.3 trick still Dania will not accept whether i will tell her go ask her papa to handle her or i ask her to wear herself the dress/skirt that she wanted to wear.

My aunt and uncle like to compliment and tease Dania with her skirt or dress saying that she looks like barbie or princess so there you go little-miss-i-am-pretty surely want to wear it more -_-'

Dania have this hard-headed attitude which really hard for you to explain the right things to her, and now she learn how to fight me back if i pinch or beat her -_-' even at the supermarket!

Now do you want your little baby to grow up fast be a toddler? LOL!!!! its normal actually and every child is different. and my little Dania i think really following my footsteps when i was same age like her, even our face many of my relatives said that me and Dania are identical! not like her papa anymore. well... that's life ^^

NO.2 habit hah! this one i really concerned every single day. if the weather is not hot she's fine. but if she start sweating or allergic then this habit will keep going on and on and on.

I am concern because if she keep on scratching her back, her neck, her tummy, her butt, her leg... her skin will become rough and really dry and it takes some time to heal. she can't control herself from scratching actually and i always have to tell her to stop doing that!

Dania will asked me to put powder on the itchy area but it does not really helping her coping with the itchy-ness ^^ even the Aiken powder.

I am hoping that this habit will disappear when she is a little bit older. if not it will be hard for her if she's in school with all the bunch of kids.

We'll see lah kan.

Friday, June 22

Dania and skin

Lucu juga title post sa ^^

I just wanted to post out here for remembrance about my little princess (she called herself Princess Dania)

She is allergic to : eggs, dust, seafood, bath cream products (eg. johnson&johnson and cosway)

So when she exposed to this things Dania's skin will get dry and itchy. i mean seriously dry and rough. she will be scratching her whole body non-stop! if this continuing the eczema will pop out.

When she was born i didn't even think about Dania will have this kind of skin because me and her dad don't have skin allergy except maybe dry skin. So i thought maybe from other family members right.

I can control her from eating the food but talking about the essential need for her skin was really mind blowing when comes to the price. luckily it will last as long as 2 or 3months.

Will post pics soon.

Monday, June 18


Eventhough i tried to be optimistic and positive in my life it is hard actually to maintain that thinking. There are much more dissapoinment in my life rather than satisfaction. im not sure if this a bad thing but yeah... that's life.

I have so many post that i want to post out in my blog but STILL i haven't done anything yet! *sigh* and now with my hard situation i can hardly tell a story here (as much as i want to) because.. i need, first 'mood' second 'time' and third 'feeling of calm'.

Yes, lately my mode was not steady and always confused. and i hate it! everybody have their own attitude which driving me crazy and so dissapoint on them. until i said that i had enough already! So i made a decision that are going to change my whole life. this is not going to be easy and yes i am scared but i don't care, i'll do anything to be happy, don't you?

Anyway... anyhoo ^^ all the beautiful photos and stories i am going to upload to this blog. i only have to find the right time.

Wednesday, May 30

Keeping me busy

Latest project inspired by my sister ^^ and i love doing it!


Dania's latest pictures that really made my day eventhough she's a menace every single day ^^ LOL!

We're going back to KK tomorrow (walaupun poket mau berlubang sudah huhuuu!) anyway i tried to be optimistic about this matter and just enjoy ourselves la. Happy Holidays Ladies ^^

Saturday, May 19

When they talked about me...

They as in family members. i know this kind of thing is normal in a family.

But still i was angry because what they gossiping about me was not reasonable at all and i can't accept it!

Last month i was on holiday with my sister from kgau to kk then kk to kgau, back and forth bah. and my hubby could not join us because he can't get any off, so it was just me and Dania. so that's the problem they talked about! i refer 'they' as to my aunts.

As hub and wife before we even had Dania while we were still in Tawau i always going back to kk most of the time alone without hubby, because he can't get any off from his job. and that's just how we are, and not a big problem to us especially to hubby. Eventhough his heart was hard to let go but if he says yes then yes it is.

And moving to keningau i still going back to kk, sometimes it will be just me and Dania. Same reason like we were in Tawau. So my aunt here knowing that i always did that they started to talk about this nonsense! Nonsense like what they asked me last month 'c boy ok ka kau pigi kk ni?' so when i said 'yes, why?', they said 'sebab balik2 sudah kan jadi manatau di mulut c boy ok tapi dalam hati tidak, jadi mana bagus gitu'

I was quite shocked actually after hearing that! but i just ignore them. Then they talk about it again while i was on my way to kk. Heard this from my cousin. same issue, same question, same thoughts from their mouth! and there my cousin tried to tell them that my sister already asked my hubby permission about bringing me back to kk again and there's an agreement for that already (which my aunts don't even know) but still they ignored my cousin's explaination. how sad is that? that they still wants to think the negative way and didn't even want to listened the fact!

Just because their condition was not like ours doesn't mean that they can and want to make mine like their way of life! this is us hub and wife own way so please don't make our way like yours which totally not the same at all! i realized as they getting old this habit of talking about others private life become a habit to them which pissing me off big time.
They religiously do this and that but still they do the things that so disgusting! so there's no point actually.

Anyhoooo i do still talk to them as normal as ever and i never mention anything about what i heard because i don't want a conflict in a family. so let them be in their silly wrong way and me just being me don't care what other people might think. there's more important stuff to think about rather than thinking about them.

Friday, May 18

Pressure for no.2

Since Dania was born i didn't even think about getting a sibling for her. and last time when she was still a baby before she turned 1 years old whenever think about another baby i felt like awkwardness and straightly the word NO was on my mind. and my mind said "there's no other baby could replace dania in my life", because for me it will be so weird. i know i didn't make any sense at all! actually its not about replacing your first born to your second born bah kan, but that's just me, silly!

And when she turned 2 years old, sometimes my mind kept wondering whether i should get a no.2 or not. am i ready or not? can i handle two kids? and there's more few reason of mine too. My experience with Dania when she was a baby i am okay with it, but im talking about when she becoming a toddler, well that's the hardest part actually. so i said maybe not now.

Now Dania is almost 3 years old definitely so many people especially your family will ask when are you going to give her a little sister? and to be honest i don't like to be ask that question anymore. why? because those question kinda made me think deep about having a second one for days! and its bugging me out!

Seeing my other cousin pregnant (she will pop this early june) and recently my aunt she found out that she's pregnant (she's been trying to be pregnant for years already) and i am soooo happy for her... plus seeing this  beautiful celebrities in this baby blog looking all so cute and pretty with their cute belly, and some of their first child is not even 3 years old and they are pregnant already! so sometimes this kind of thing made me feel like i wanna  be like them too! it was a wonderful feeling and experience being pregnant. Taking care a small baby was such a fun time but in my mind how am i gonna do that together with Dania? Seeing my other friend in real life having a second baby even before their first one turned 2 years old was hard for me to consider about it.

Am i being such a negative person and not optimistic about this issue?

My sister still don't have a baby in their life and i keep telling her to have one. then she asked me this question "Give me some positive reason why i should have a baby in my life?" and to a shocked for me i couldn't answer her question! Geez! but its not that bad actually, she will have the cutest baby with her aussie hubby if she ever want one.

But right now my situation seriously made me think that no, i wont have a no.2, end of story. i don't mind having Dania only in my life. i know some of you might think that i am ridiculous and Dania will be a spoil brat while growing up. well if that's what gonna happen, well it will happen then. it's all up to us parents how you brought up your child.

One think that i strongly consider right now is precaution! LOL. hopefully i wont be too stress about having no.2 anymore.

Monday, May 7

Its in the gene

On March Dania went to the hospital twice, at night and early morning.

This is the thing that i was soooo afraid since Dania was still in my womb. i'm afraid that if she will have the same sickness like me, like my grandfather, like my other cousins and like her papa. i'm talking about asthma!

I had it when i was in primary school but it was nothing worst actually, we just had to eat some medicine and not too much cold food/drink. as for Dania's situation it totally attack badly for me lah, coz you can hear her breathing sound and her chest and stomach was going up and down! and i was madly scared that night!

We went to the hospital and the doctor straightly ask the nurse to check Dania's oxygen, and i assume that it's not good so Dania had to wear the mask for this (i think) ventolin pump. Dania had this pump 3 times! the doctor almost register Dania to ward because he saw that her stomach was still going up and down, and that time i don't care whether she's going to the ward or whatever the doc said as long as Dania can breathe easily and her oxygen are getting better! lucky for us after the third pump she was ok. and at home she slept quite well actually. but then early morning i think the asthma came back which is worst than last night!

I did not think much and all i wanna do is get her to the hospital again! coz the doc reminded us last night that Dania must come back for pump if the asthma attack again. and that time hubby just came back from work. luckily the doc that manage Dania last night was there and he remembered us too. so yeah... straightly went for a pump at 7.30 am and we were there until 12 noon! can you imagine being there for hours with the hospital's aircond? it was crazy! so cold until i can't even feel my finger tips. seriously how on earth a patient can get better with that temperature? i have no idea at all! and mostly the asthma patient is toddler and baby. i know how other mothers feel with their kids there.

When we were in kk early April Dania went to clinic also because of her flu and there's a little sound of asthma. and that time i tried to think very very hard why on earth she get her asthma back again?! then i remembered 2days before Dania felt hard to breathe she and my cousin play bubble and Dania was the one who was blowing the bubble again and again and again! then i also remembered at keningau few days before the asthma attack she did play bubble also with her papa. so there you go, a person who have history of asthma couldn't blow too hard of anything even a balloon or blowing a bubble too much, apa lagi for a toddler kan. this is true because last time when i was still pregnant the doc tested me of blowing this thing, she said it was a preparation for me during labor later. she tested me because she knew that i have an asthma history. and i failed the test again and again!   

So yeah... that's our experience with this asthma thing. i hate it but i can't do anything about it because it's in our family's gene. how sad is that!

From now on i tried hard not to let Dania play bubble anymore, coz once she start she wont stop. not too much cold stuff and too much cold air (hard to excape in this matter).

Wednesday, May 2

Stories from weeks

There's been alot of things going on in our life this past few weeks or months since the last time i updated this blog. and as always i don't know where to begin.

On March i stayed in keningau until the end of the month i went back to Kk again coz Meibelle (my sister) and her hubby came back from Australia for a 2weeks hols.

Few days in kk then go back to keningau again for Family Day (games and a badminton tournament). and the whole family was there and it was hectic! we had sooooo much fun spending time together and winning some awesome prizes too. after spending 2 nights there i had to follow my sister back to kk spend time with her before she going back to Aust the next few days. went to an island, with Dania too and ofcourse shopping and awhole lot of food! such a short short time for me to enjoy my sister company actually, and both of us really misses each other already. it really sad!

As always Dania fell sick in kk. and yup visiting the clinic everytime we go to kk was actually a must already, which is quite annoying for me!

Dania's development nothing much actually, except for her after-well-from-sick attitude was driving me crazy. and i discovered her allergy and her new interest.

Also there's an issue about certain family members which not really stressing me out but it actually make me think about it every single day.

So in conclusion now i wanna try to find some time to update this blog and print out few photos from our holidays and event.

Wednesday, March 21


Last weekend was a full tiring day for us, ngam lagi c hubby off-day so bejalan ja la.

Sat afternoon i followed my MIL and SIL (without Dania) to saloon and some shop tuk cuci-cuci mata. i shopped a lil bit for Dania (some clothes) and myself. then went for a tea break at Rahmat restaurant for satay and roti canai. went back home almost dark already. then i force myself eventhough i am so damn tired already we have to go with our early plan with my aunts and uncles for a fun fair night out ^^

Funny thing at the fun fair when we reached the parking lot Dania was sooooo excited! as we entering the fun fair, looking around then Dania suddenly cried and started shouting and saying that she scared. and it kept going on and on. we tried to distract her with the kid's ride but failed then brought her to the games side where all this plush toys were and failed too! finally i said that better hubby and Dania go back to the car and i'll be there later because i haven't ride anything yet -_- what an experience is that?! that was my first time seeing a toddler scared to a fun fair!

Dania actually doesn't like anything that is fast, high and noisy, so i think being there and seeing all the rides scared the hell out of her. seriously until she kept on pressing and patting her stomach and chest. kesian juga, sampai menitis air mata juga la hehheee.... so hubby did not play anything that night.

Woke up abit late the next day, i had plan with my aunt to go to bundle area or they called it lelong. and we were there for almost 3hours i think. that time i didn't have the mood to find anything for me, so i'm thinking to find something for Dania coz if you lucky you can find these branded still-good-looking piece. penat oh tangan mencari baju saja! but i'm loving it. what do we get? some clothes for Dania( GAP Disney and some korean brand, caps for hubby and Fila jaket for me.

Then we headed to Rahmat again for ABC because that time was so hot! luckily Dania was ok and didn't get cranky at all.

Thursday, March 15

My Loves

Yup... the wallpaper was from Dierdre's blog. Love it!

Monday, March 12


Basically that's how Dania dressed up everyday, i mean wearing her dress-up set.

Today Dania really really want to follow her cousin out with their grandma to do some window shopping, typical attitude by her -_- bikin geram. coz everytime people are going out she WANT to follow them, unless you can slow talk to her and ggive her some reasonable reason for her, which i always failed and that's the time she will show some attitude, or maybe big tantrum!

In which i am getting sick of it already! seriously, i know she still a toddler and it is normal for then to be like that but i kinda felt dissapointed at myself because its like i failed to teach or show her what she did was wrong and unacceptable. isn't it? *sigh*

The only thing that she will stop is by making her cry. but sometimes it will only make it worst (her anger). sometimes she will fight back at me, by raising her voice -_- what else can i do? am i failed already?

Wednesday, March 7

One of it

One of my 'brainstorm' that i mentioned on my previous post was about Organizing my room space. Whether its for my clothes space, dania's space and little corner table for m personal stuff and my lappy.

Browsing through Pinterest and WeHeartIt has definitely make me even more 'bombing' with tons and tons of ideas!

For example :

This was like my table inside my room, except mine was light brown with those kind of drawers only abit smaller. My idea for this table is maybe i can paint it to any color that i want, probably white or any pastel color!

And i would die to make the table space to be just like this! a lil bit of color tone due to the natural color surround.

And i wish that this kind of basket organizer was being sold here. i know that Kaison do have this kind and its cheap but the other day they don't have a 'nice' size for me.

And i wish that any florist here are selling cheap fresh flower! so that i can place it on my table with a transparent bottle, or mason jar. but Dania will probably ruin the flower instead -_-

last but not list if can i want the table to be place infront of wide white window with a nice sheer curtain! any pastel colors will do.

I already imagining about this to be done soon, hope i can make it work. OH! and i need to fine stool too....

.... buy paint
.... basket organizer
.... clean the window area

and how can i make it work for the pretty wall photo decoration??if only my Pinterest board i can just put it on the wall like magic ^^

Night peeps! i wanna keep dreaming......

Monday, March 5


Okay i felt terrible not to update my lonely blog.

But or maybe because lately my mind thoughts and heart are like sugar-rush or kinda like brain-storm! BUT i have no idea why i didn't have the exact idea to update this blog.

There's too many stuff for me to mention, there's too many stories for me to share, there's too meny question for me to ask and tons of pictures for me to upload.

In conclusion i can say that it is probably because i am feeling creative lately in all aspect!

Tuesday, February 21

Little virgin hair

It's history for Dania's old wavy new-born hair! and i am emotional about this so bad.

I just loved her hair. but there's few reason for me to decide that Dania need to have her hair cut.

- she doesn't like to tie her hair

- always sweating and because of her hair covering her neck she will start scratching it

- recently she got a bacteria derma.... something something. it's a skin infected by bacteria. she got it from her aunt Bebe. and she had it behind her upper neck.

Looking at Dania's long hair really made me missed it much. it's more girly girl and now kinda tomboyish. funny thing is whenever she made this disagree-face with her new hair cut she look like a really sneaky naughty little toddler!

Oh FYI i cut her hair on my own and she didn't even made any fuss that moment. maybe she understand why aight?