Hundred miles from home

i felt awkward not going back home with ney lastnight.

i felt really uncomfortable. i don't know why.... i worried all the time about ney and the house but i don't know why (mcm org tua kan).
anyway it's only been one day i'm being single without ney here with me in kk but i already felt like missing something.


but.... it doesn't mean that i didn't enjoy myself here.
i am happy.
happy with my cousins. with my family.
it's been almost a week i'm here but i still haven't meet my mum and my sis.

last week we went back to kgau but we didn't use the ranau road to tambunan,
instead we used to kk road. one borneo and i love Daiso! hehe
so we had the chance to go to
skejap only we stay at kgau, 4 days.

this is ney with his nephew did fishing.
i miss kgau.

kk and kgau everyday also raining, then when there's the sun it was hot as hell.
make me feel like sick only.

okay me and my cousin just got our new ic today.
it's been 3 months i didn't take my ic then the guy there asked me why.
mau juga kan.
don't ask me about the picture on the my kad.
i don't like it at all.
if only i can go and change the picture.
hate it.

don't laugh hehe.

to Didy : Happy Belated b'day b**ch!! hehee

Holiday time !!

Going back to keningau tomorrow early in the morning, maybe 5.30 am / 6.00 am. I love to start a journey on the early morning... when it's still cold and abit dark. what i don't like is everytime in the morning my tummy start to feel not good. it is always like that.

I hope tomorrow along the journey will not be as hot as our previous journey which is damn hot! it was like somebody bake me in an oven. i'm like a potato in the car being roasted. seriously.


We are not gonna use the road to kk but we're using the road from ranau straight to tambunan then keningau. i hope the road is ok because thia is the first time for us to use the road there.

What i hate about this holiday is that ney only have 6 days of off day from work! his off kena kurang because before this was 8 days then to 6 days!!

I am sooo mad today. why? because i hate waiting for hours!! and i hate when the same mistake occur again and again, why it have to be like that?? why? and i'm tired of talking about the stupid mistake! i wont forgive and i wont forget. it's not a revenge. i'll give a lesson. so mad right now.


So i'm glad to be staying at kk for a few weeks away from here. SO GLAD! i can clear my mind.

I'll post my blog if i had any chance to make a connection through internet. but maybe i'll be 1 week without internet in keningau.

I hope everybody is at home in keningau. so it wont be boring.

should i ? or shouln't i ?

i am so confused !!

I don't know what should i do. I don't know what decision i should make.

Am i ready? am i REALLY REALLY ready? or should i wait?

Well i''m trying so hard to think on the bright side but then all the dark side suddenly took over all the bright side. So how the hell am i suppose to make a RIGHT decision about it?!!

THIS IS GIVING ME SO MUCH PRESSURE!

i hate the P word but i love it too.

i'm being silly now.