it has been 1 week since we started to live here in our hometown permanently and as weird as i think myself, i'm kinda feel like there's something missing here. something that made me smile. which ofcourse i have no idea what it is.
I am happy because we're no longer away from our own family and we can save more in our expenses ( i hope ). BUT like i said i feel like there's still an empty part that really makes me feel down. the environment DEFINITELY not like our old home ( its kinda bothering me actually) i know it's crazy for me to feel that way.
Speaking of the old home, i have no idea why i keep on thinking about it lately. i am missing it. but i feel like it keep on lingering in my mind. i definitely miss the environment and the freeness to be in there, yes it is different to be here, now. *sighing*
I miss going outside to eat without thinking back home, which is now the in laws in at home. yes it does sometimes makes you feel guilty when there's somebody at home waiting for you. i am not in a negative way of thinking here, don't get me wrong. the in laws is great. but the freeness was a bit unsteady. you dont get to do the way you want certain things to be, it is irritating sometimes. but i have to hold it back.
Overall i can say that i am not fully happy yet.