Story

It's almost 3weeks im here in kk. from my mom's place to aunt's house, to keningau and so on...

if i have to put in percentage my enjoyment about this holiday, i'll say 60%.

there is alot of bad and good when you're away from home. kurang itu, kurang ini. but the most unsatisfying things for me is about lunch and dinner. here it is like " do your own things if you want it " so it NOT FUN at all. seriously everyday i'll get mad about it.

Last time when Mei is here was alot better. eventhough how busy she is, there's always time for us. i miss her. now is totally different. everybody and i mean EVERYBODY is changing already. not fun at all.

his attitude? getting worst. i am so dissappointed.

Actually staying at my in law was alot better than here.only there nothing much to do. but little Dania enjoyed her stay there last weekend. she's alot braver than before.

Well tomorrow is the last day for 2010. and this is my last post for this year. i just hope 2011 will be alot better. in a matter of myself, my own family, my other family, my little dania health and our financial plus happiness. and i want to be more mature and stronger in every way.

amen.

Situation

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i'm just not happy.

i will continue with this soon.

kk with love

Me and Dania arrived kk yesterday afternoon. it was tiring!! and my arm all hurt!



From the tawau airport carry my big handbag and Dania on both of my arm, waiting for our plane, hey waiting is tiring! then arrived kk airport carry Dania again from the plane to the damn airport (this is how airasia is) then i have to pull the trolley and wait (again) our luggage (1 big luggage, 1 med size and Dania's trolley) and i have to put it all myself on the trolley! so basically that's why my arm is in pain. plus again that day so many people from tawau flew back to kk, so it's crowded! hate!



Anyway i WILL TRY to enjoy ourselves here eventhough my mum and my sis is busy with their own activity *sigh*, kinda boring lah.



Dania's is very handful i can say since we were here. she wants to go here and there. go up and down the staircase!! (kebaruan tangga lol) then if you don't follow her if she wanna bring you she'll start to raise her voice, so annoying actually *sigh*

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Last but not list i want to say to myself "be strong anne!"

12.12.10 funny

I told Dania to sit on the sofa and wait me there. So while i was in the kitchen making her milk i peek at her on the corner of my eyes and i realized that she was not on the sofa anymore, i thought maybe she's at the balcony.

I called her name while looking outside the balcony but she's not there. my thought quickly think "oh no she went into the bathroom!!" and i remembered that i haven't throw the water from her tub yet. i ran as fast as i can to see her in the bathroom and there she was. sitting IN her tub which still full with water and bubbles playing with it.

Her clothes were all wet. i am not mad actually, i think it's funny and cute. first time she did this kind of thing. i took her out from the bathroom and she was crying while saying "baa baa!!", means that she wanna have a bath again.

LOL!!!

Remember it.

I wanna list a few things that Dania is really fond into. For me to remember incase i re-read my old post in the future. so that i will remember that moment that i had.

1. Plush toys. especially teddy bear and her meoww-meoww (that's what Dania called it).

this her meoww-meoww...

2. Umbrella. she still can't say the word but whenever she see it on tv or in book or at the street where people are using it she will get all excited. now she call it like ' bbuurrr ' (i think) lol.

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3. Ball. any kind of ball. she'll love it! she called it ' baaaa '.

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4. Bubbles. she love to play bubble, especially during bath time. she'll ask me to splash the water so that the bubbles will appear. she called it ' bubba '.

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5. Flower. any kind of flower if you show her she will stare at it and babbling. i'm not so sure how she pronounce it though.

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6. Book. Dania love love love book! she love if you show her with your finger and do some act while reading it to her.

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7. Shoe. she can't see any shoe, if not she definitely want to wear it at that moment. whether it was an adult shoe or her own shoe she WANT to wear it. she called it ' shoss '. i think she's just like me shoe lover lol.

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8. Cat. she really like to see cat. anywhere she will get sooo excited. whenever she see one she will say ' meoww-meoww ' while patting her chest as if she caressing it. so cute.

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9. Balloon. she called it ' buuuuu ' lol. whenever we stop by at the gas station she knows that there's so many balloon selling there. she will point at it and nod her head again and again meaning that she wants it.

This is Dania during her first birthday. surrounding with toys and her cousins.
i wish i could do her first birthday all over again.

Now she's 1 year and 3 months. very manja and like to show-off her attitude.

I'm going back to kk this Tuesday and i just hope that she will not be all cranky and please let her stay well.

Seriously

I just wanna say that i'm throwing ' it ' out already. i just need to be firm and strong right now. i'm walking out of here, even if i have to leave everything behind and walk out with bare foot.

Love

I was searching for Dania's wet tissue yesterday when i found my old notebook from few years back. Then i remembered that i have several of my notebook that i've lost and no where to be found. i know it is somewhere inside the stor room.

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The note book that i found yesterday was a sad story of mine. but still i love reading it. it help me to ponder upon some situation that hit me big during that years and made me learn it and apply it on my current life. as i was reading it while sitting on the sofa mostly i was shaking my head. it was stupid though.

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I love notebook. i have tons of it since i was in high school. i always buy notebook eventhough i will not use it because i just love to see the cover design and to collect it just made my day.
but now since i was away from kk which is my second home and where mostly my old notebooks was (if they didn't throw it) i missed reading them.

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For now i can't wait to go back to kk and go to Something Different to buy a few of notebook! i just love their notebook because of their unique design, very vintage style and the paper is brown in colour. i hope they still open because it's been ages since i went there.

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Long tag

Posting this tag by Annie because i have nothing better to do in this Monday afternoon.

Once you have been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, fact, habits, or goal about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person that tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

1. I hate half cooked egg yolk. geli.

2. Whenever i'm going out of the house i must use my bodyshop eyebrow shadow. not that my brow is a disaster ok.

3. I rather choose rainy day than a hot day. its just that the rain really give me this calm and relax feeling. good feeling.

4. I have dusun-chinese-filipino-spanish blood. but dunno p mana tu chinese and spanish blood LOL!!

5. Never let me watch any ghost movie because the ghost will keep on lingering on my head.

6. my siblings are all girls. named Meibelle and Myra age 20 and 15.

7. I love baby. i have one named Dania. lol.

8. I can live without my handphone but can't live without internet (*.*)

9. I love vintage stuff.

10. Handmade craft things just adored me so much.

11. My dream job to be a designer or a photography. bah how to accomplish this lol.

12. I really really seriously want a DSLR or Polaroid camera. or a new handphone i guess. (bah minta christmas gift ;) )

13. I just love my hometown, Keningau.

14. Addicted to korean songs, music, movie, drama, people.... lol.

15. My current hobby is baking. love love love.

16. To have a small cafe of my own one day.

17. My childhood is a one thing that i try not to remember the memory too much.

18. Hate people who is very lazy, late all the time, someone who like talk big and a liar!

19. Dania is everything to me in this world.

20. I want a family gathering to be done regularly like we used to but nowadays seems that so hard for them.

21. Every night before i go to sleep i will plan/think about what i'm going to have for tomorrow breakfast and lunch.

22. I love to talk. it makes me feel much better than just keep quiet.

23. I hate man's ego!

24. Can't sleep with the light on.

25. I wish i was in Forks LOL!!!! damn you twilight.

There you go, 25 random things about me. penat berfikir sudah heheee.

I can't tag 25 people. banyak bah that, so i tag Carmelliny, Ellyda, Dierdre, and Anne. PLs feel free to do it if you're free. thanks (^^)

Bliss

I just love my own little corner. my thoughts and my heart is everything there.

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Attn

As you can see i've added this Reaction post on my every post in my blog *huh* so if you finish reading my post and you are too lazy to give me some feedback or comment please do tick at the reaction post. i would appreciate it if you do that.

thanks.

Random quote.

Right....

i should be this way. sometimes dua hati.

- i've been planning of doing a long post on my blog but time just doesn't allow me to. hate.

Dream-catcher

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i would love to have a dream catcher for me and Dania.

Hang it on top of our bed.

Probably Dania will pull it out if she see it. anyway i WANT one.

Happy December you all !!! can't wait for holidays!!

although at other country is cold and snowy, here hot as in the oven. lol.

enough

my heart was torn into pieces and there's nothing you can do about it.

i had enough.

i will begone.

Wish

I wanna meet a genie so that he can grant my wish.

or see a shooting star so that i can cross my finger to make a wish. What wish i'm talking about?

This past few days i've beem thinking deep about my little Dania. she so growing up already and i don't want it to happen this fast! i want her milestone to go slow so that i can record it in my memory every single bit of it. but i can't. there's some things that i couldn't remember while she's growing up.


I regret saying that i want her to grow up fast when she was just few months old. i said that because last time i am having a hard, tired and stressful time with her. it was really hard to put her to sleep last time. but if i look back to that days it's not that bad afterall, maybe i'm still new at handling a new born so its stressing me out so because of that i want her to grow up fast so that it will become easier for (which is not actually). the more they grow up the harder for you to take care of them actually.

Last month i ask dania one thing that i want her to accomplish fast, walking. yes, i want her to be walking, enough with the crawling already so that it is easier for me but i was wrong. now she's walking at the age of 1 year and 1 month old and there i am following her everywhere she wanna go. so it is more tiring for me actually. So because of this i promise that will be the last thing that i want her to do fast in her milestone.

But right now i'm just enjoying every moment with her whether in good, happy, sad or bad times i will always be there for her. cherish every moment of it. still i don't want her to grow up fast!! take it slow Dania.

So what is actually this wish thing have to do with Dania's milestone?

Well......

I WISH THAT I CAN TURN BACK TIME TO WHEN SHE WAS JUST BEING BORN ON
19 09 2009.

so that i can remember, cherish and enjoy every single second and moment with my baby.

*sob sob sob*

her small feet snapped by herself while holding my hp.

Fantasy

I've just finish watching the Twilight saga : Eclipse. i love it. i was smiling myself during the whole movie.


Did you watch it yet? did you ever feel while watching it, its like you were in the situation or in that same place same time with Bella and Edward and the rest? have you?? i know i did. even last time while watching Twilight. no wonder teens are so crazy about them. hey don't get me wrong ok, i'm just enjoying the movie bah!!


My favorite scene was when Bella and Edward on the grass full of purple flowers all around them. if you were here watching me watching this part you can see my smile can reach my ear lol. seriously!


I love Kristen's character as Bella. she really fit to it. for me she's pretty and natural in her own way. many people said that she's very awkward and stiff but she's just being herself i guess and i like her. in this movie i luurrvveee her hair and clothes!!

So for me there's no Team Edward nor Team Jacob.

This movie makes my belly full of butterfly! maybe because i was really into it. into the character. into the situation. into the conversation and thoughts. and i love it. my fantasy. lol.



This is where i wanna be, spending my time with lovers just like when Edward and Bella was hugging each other (my own story line) facing the woods and the mist. how romantic is that?


Dreaming myself to be in this kind of place just like in the Twilight movie. fantasy fantasy fantasy of a dreamer.

Me.

Tuesday i like

It's laundry day just like yesterday and last night.

Don't you just love to dry your colourful and different sizes of your clothes like the above picture.
when you look at it afar from your house? its very peaceful.

I'm just loving my home at the moment. my nest. Maybe i'll bake a cake today or a cupcake.

I heart those curtain!! then it really inspired me to changed my old curtain here in our living room.

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Hate when people take advantage of our kindness for our weaknesses. Please think what other people might think about you!

BONAMANA

Found this post of tagging bloggers at Carmel's blog, i wanna try it suka-suka ja.....

The Rules:

Put your music library on shuffle. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. You must write that song title as the answer to the question, no matter how silly it sounds! Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough. Ok, go! When you're done, tag 20 people in this note, and make sure to tag the person who sent you this. The answer to #20 is the Title of your note.

~~ I used songs from my handphone ~~

1.If someone says, “Is this okay?” you say

Cry me out - Pixie lott

2. How would you describe yourself?
Dance with my daddy - Alex (korea)
Tiada kaitan...

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?)

This is me - Demi lovato

4. How do you feel today?

Thinking of you - Katy perryQuite suitable kan, rindu org d kampung hahahaa

5. What is your life’s purpose?

Love story - Taylor swift
eerrrkkk....

6. What's your motto?

You belong with me - Taylor swift
no no no....

7. What do your friends think of you?

Oh! - Girls generation
Oh yaa??

8. What do you think of your parents?

I never told you - Colbie caillat

9. What do you think about very often?

Smile - Uncle crackerYesss....

10. What is 2 + 2?

Stick with you - Pussycat doll
so true...

11. What do you think of your best friend(s)?

Run devil run - Girls generationAll of them very naughty i guess....

12. What do you think of the person you like?

Haru haru - Big bang
eehhmmm....

13. What is your life story?

No other - Super junior
????

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?

Nobody (but you) - Wonder girls
LOL!! ngam juga kan...

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?

My immortal - Evanesence

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?

California girls - Katy Perry
Siok juga...

17. What will they play at your funeral?

Yo te amore - Chayanne (spanish)
it's a love song for the one who died wah!

18. What is your biggest fear?

Need you now - Lady antebelum
Fear being alone i guess....

19. What is your biggest secret?

My life would suck without you - Kelly clarkson
no no no......

20. What will you post this as?

Bonamana - Super Junior
Hahahaha...

Yupp i'm jumping to the beat goes on...

Photos

Bubbles that we played yesterday and photo of Dania wearing dress which is my favorite one!!

it's a beautiful evening... during sunset.

i just realized that the color of her dress matches the sofa LOL!!

Having fun

Me and my little Dania played bubbles today. we blow lots and lots of bubble.

The moment i did the first blow she get all overly excited and making all sort of noise. so cute.

My tiredness never ends.

*enjoying my bubur cha-cha while the two of my loved sleeping*

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Family visit

I am in a cheer mood because......

My grandmother and aunt with her baby boy arrived here yesterday for 3 days ONLY huh. they want to go jalan-jalan here in tawau.

I Want A DSLR !!

My heart and soul

Yes she is my heart and soul. I love her more than anything in this world. Saja saja i put this latest picture of my little Dania. Show you her attitude. naughty.

I kinda miss blogging suddenly after reading some blogs. So i decided to do it back again, but i really need to find free time to do this. If anyone of you realized that i didn't post anything for so long please do remind me on facebook :)

Just now i baked marble choc-coffee cake. but it did not raise like any other cake. no idea why pedahal i already add baking powder and soda too. how come ah?? is it because of the soda? or maybe i beat the ingredients too hard. i read on yahoo answer about this and they say it could be the problem. Im not so sure which is the main cause.

So as a result my cake is short. Oh or maybe the acuan big for the amount of the total mixture??

Reason cake did not raise:
1. Pan is too large
2. underbaked - oven temperature too low
3. under-beating batter
4. too much liquid
5. batter sat too long before baking

Well as the source said up there...i think reason number 1 and 3 for my cake.

Anyway here it is : (sedap juga bah!!)

Marble Choco-Coffee Cake with Peppermint Icing on top.

Its delicious!!

Now the dishes i leave to ney to wash it hahahaa. Night!!

BIG girl

She's 1 year old already.

She wants to drink milk bottle already.

She scared to walk by her own. so not yet walking.

She's a big eater.

She likes to babble this and that.

She will follow whatever you say infront of her.

She easily get bored like her mumy.

She's a dancing queen.

Some people said that she seem naughty but for me she's just growing up.

no matter what......

Mumy love you Dania just the way you are!